Ever since Cat went to jail, I feel more stressful for her everyday. Also I've been having dreams about me trying to find this awesome movie but when I woke up I realized it never existed. I know that sounds weird but in a weird way, I think that any kind of hope that I'm reaching for is one that can never be accomplished. To me that stresses me out because I'm sitting here wanting to help in any way I can but I'm not able to do so. I can't even pay for the grocerry thing because I don't have paypal nor a credit card and my father is so cheap he won't even lend it to me...All I can do is hope and pray...but even my subconscious seems to be telling me that it's hopeless to do that when even little demon spawns like Celest gets away with murder...
